posted on 01.05.10
at 12:49 pm
sometimes...

I believe 2010 is giving me a great reason to go back to my old ways. I try not to, but it seems to me like I have to. I like to do what I want, when I want, how I want,  where I want, etc. Especially after establishing what I wanted, and it was made clear that this wasn’t reciprocated. Why would I play by the rules? Why would I do what I was asked, if I what I want isn’t going to happen? The answer: I wouldn’t. Sometimes a punch to the face (metaphorically of course) is needed to wake you the hell up. I got ‘KO’d’ late last night, but it didn’t make me upset, or sad surprisingly. Which makes me realize, that wasn’t a good look for me. I’ve also come to the conclusion, that maybe sometimes, people from the past enter your life for a reason. Sometimes, an ex isn’t an ex for a reason. Maybe at that time in your life, you weren’t ready to give your all, and be what that person wanted. Coming back, might be that 2nd chance, to try again, as adults, and try to make it work. The right way. Who knows. At this point, who cares. I’m torn, but my vacay in CA, will help clear my thoughts. Yes I’m going to the National Championship to see my cousin and UA play UT. Let’s go Crimson Tide. :)

posted on 10.13.09
at 11:18 am
I don't know how to feel...

My daddy and I are about to go gun shopping. He feels that because I live alone in a big 4 bedroom house and drive a nice car that I should be protected. I can understand his plight, but there was only 5 murders in my city last year, and 12 robberies. Some cities have that in an afternoon. I do want to be protected, but with my mini me always getting into stuff, finding stuff she has no business finding, it’s a hard decision. He told me to put it in my safe, which doesn’t make much sense, because if I’m being robbed, I have to run to the safe…..etc., etc. In any event, I am going to go looking, and I’ll see what I can come up with.

ciao.