I feel very indifferent. When I feel like this, it’s not a good thing, because I tend to let my nonchalant attitude get the best of me and do things I might end up regretting. It’s funny, how with all the friends, associates, family, and don’t forget the ‘boyfriend’ (which is a term I use loosely), that I seem to be lonely. I don’t mind being by myself, I’m quite used to it actually, but that’s very different than being lonely. When I am lonely, and not getting the attention I desire, and need, I tend to go elsewhere. Somewhere that I know I can get the attention I deserve. This can end up hurting the guy I am with, which is something I don’t want to intentionally do. But, when I’m being told over and over that things are going to change, and they don’t, it leaves me to believe that it must not be…or I must not be that important. If I’m not important, or a priority, why would I treat you with the respect that’s not being reciprocated? Things that make you ‘hmm’.