at 2:35 pm
There comes a point in your life when you have to say enough is enough. It may be you woke up & were like “i want to get out the hood”, so you decide to go to school & better yourself. It maybe you want to get out of an abusive relationship, whether the abuse is physical, emotional, mental, or all 3. It may be you are in a relationship where you fight constantly, argue, make up & break up every other day, or every other week.
For me, it’s the latter. my relationship with this man began 043008. It was beautiful in the beginning, no arguing, nothing but sincerity, laughs, & love. I believe it took a turn for the worst, because I was in TX, & he’s in NY. The constant question for us was “when am I going to see you?” Then came the jealousy when I went out. The insecurity when I didn’t answer my phone. The feeling that he couldn’t trust me, because he had been hurt in the past.
I stayed with him, but it was rocky after that. every other day was a fight, beefing, arguing. We are broken up now, but I still found myself contacting him, texting, IMing, etc. I began to realize this was completed one sided. I always initiated contact, after a fight, or a break-up. Whether I was wrong or he was, I always contacted him 1st. He might have apologized & admitted he was wrong, but the first step always came from me.
So, yesterday, I had an epiphany, & it hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized, I can’t do this anymore, I just can’t. I sent him a text message & basically said that I have always given 110% in trying to make the relationship work, & change my ways for the better, but to no avail. I told him that I was sick & tired of the drama, the constant break-ups, & I needed to be with someone who was going to treat me like the princess that I am. He said a couple of things, saying he was busy a lot of times & that’s why he couldn’t contact me as much as I wanted. Then said he was done beefing, & he was going to smoke & play Madden 2k9. I hit him with a final text that said “go be busy, smoke & playing video games. have a nice life.”
No reply back. But I’m glad he didn’t hit me back. I wished, I didnt have his #s memorized. He’s in my fave 5, & I can’t replace him until the 1st, which sucks, because I have to see his face & number in my phone. But, I believe time & not speaking to him will definitely help me. I’ve been over it for a while, but was trying to make it work, for what reason, I have no clue. Enough is enough. I’m at my wits end, & I can’t be miserable anymore. I refuse. Too many good looking men, with sense to dwell on it. so….enough already.
