jelly doesn't shake like this

It’s funny how one door closes, and double French doors open. I was in a ‘situation’ and had so much of my time wasted, but for some reason, I am not at all upset by it.*shrugs* With that said, I have found a new and much better ‘situation’, where we see eye to eye and I am grateful and very happy. Maybe if my time wasn’t wasted with such a difficult person, I wouldn’t be able to see what I was missing. I will definitely take things extremely slow…short bus slow in fact, and see how things work out. You can only hope for the best, and prepare for the worst. Life, go figure. ;)

I was always told, if something is too good to be true, it probably is. I’ve been in a ‘relationship’, if you want to call it that for a very short amount of time, and it’s been up and down like a roller coaster. It seems like when things are good, they are o’ so good, but when they are bad, they make me want to pull out my hair. Since this relationship is so new, and we are only in the ‘like’ phase, it might be easier to let things go, and part ways. The lack of communication, and then me complaining about the lack of communication, the bickering, the fighting, the silent treatment after a disagreement has driven a wedge between he and I. I don’t know if it’s worth it to try and work it out. I honestly am so nonchalant, that I just don’t give a fuck. Add that to the fact, that I’m supposed to move back to NY in April, it seems pointless. On the other hand, I like him. He makes me smile. He’s sexy. He’s intelligent, funny, well dressed, etc. I don’t know what it is, that causes us to argue and not get along. What I do know, is a significant other is supposed to be a stress reliever, not a stress causer. To say it’s all one sided, would be a lie. I know I can be extremely difficult, rude, and very stand offish. Not to mention, I’m working 16 hour shifts, and sometimes it’s very hard to see him. Again, I’m torn. Time will tell, good or bad, with or without him, I’ll always be good. :)